The fears and Curiosity

There was a threaten from my inner Guardian
"Jen, step back and keep distance"
Of course, I did not listen......

Then put all my fears behind and enjoy the challenges with the curiosity
Actually, I have no clue why but really dislike my action though.

I knew something is not right and somehow the fears has been attacking me……
However, the excitement just hit me so hard and got me dizzy

I have been asking myself

what happen to you?

Why you are not listening to your inner voice now?

I do not know why, somehow thing just happened and I just let it attacked me
I kept asking myself so many questions
Do you know what were you doing to your self now?
What was all those about?
What do you know about?
Were all the talks true to you?
many many many questions.....
And I knew the answers but I ignored them all...................silly and no fun

I guess the heart does not belong to me sometimes, it goes on by its self.......................dam
Anyway, before it gets hurt I better close it now.................do not want to get hurt again